i really like this girl i just met. her name is Leah. I kinda, sorta like her a lot. we talk almost everyday and i never can learn enough about her. the thing is that i’ve yet to have met her in person. she lives like 93 minutes away and i really can’t wait to she her. even with all my quirks and anxiety - i’m ready. for a while i thought that i was just in a rush to finally find someone, anyone. but i literally don’t go a day with thinking about what she is thinking and doing.

there is something else. my first love also lives in the same damn town. in fact like towards the end of last year i had plans on going up there to see her then i came to this self realization that would not be okay. so i was kinda resolved on ever going there.

also the medical school that i might attend is also in the same dog damn city. i mean, i couldn’t make this up. being a doctor is a somewhat of a very real possibility and going to that school makes a lot of sense.

the thing is this, i have a fear of going up and seeing Leah and then just by some random ass chance run into my first crush. also can i note this lady is someone up until a few months ago, talked to for about 10 years so it would be kinda fucking sorta strange being in the same town she lives and not have told her i was also going to be in the same town.

but that shite doesn’t matter. i like leah. i really do and i’m pretty sure she likes me too. i can’t wait until i head up there, it will be awkward and awesome and kinda, sorta amazing.